~nerv0us~

ginz(j)ang=nervous=berdebar-debar

im gonna say dat 2day one of da longest day in my life

2 b waiting wif full of nervous

butterfly dancing in stomach

cold sweat keep come out

dry mouth...feel sickening

GRR>>>I REALLY HATE DAT FEELING!!

but still i have 2 face it~~

im having my so called 'dangerous' interview today

+dis will pattern my life afterward+

its really sickening 2 b waiting about 2 hours jz 2 b interview 4 about 1/2 hour!!

but still im happy coz i've done it~~

da question is kinda annoyed me a bit

coz im really nt interested wif da topics

ME+POLITICS=IGNORANT!!

LOL...after all i get wat dey trying 2 do

dey jz wanna c how firm u r in ur decision

although its kinda weird n so out of cntext

im still answering it wif everythings dat i've in my 'tiny' head

so im jz hoping 4 da best!!

hopefully i'll b in russia dis september

n YES i am ready 2 revive my DREAMS back

lalala...guess fruits after effort is da sweetest things...

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my fav phrase dat i've got 2day from one of da interviewee

+INTELLECT=inside telling you wat to do+

++im currently grooving with:kim bumsoo-lie++

~iMmatUrE~

2010.04.23 Friday 23:27

..A mosquito sat on a tiger's back and sucked his blood..

..The mosquito felt good because he had conquered the tiger..

..But the tiger didn't even care..

..Isn't this the difference between a master and an amateur?..

..Don't react to the little things..

Translated by ♥ jubee ♥ @ sjworld.net

~ppl find dis poetic remarks as a dissing 2 them...jz like jungsoo said

'isn't this the difference between a master and an amateur?'...

without any reason yes im agree...

bt if bcoz of dis my angel is hurt they totally IMMATURE

im nt saying who's right who's wrong...4 me its tradition

ppl should jz get along wif it n follow da rule...

dats makes u differ whether u'r a master or simply jz an amateur!!~

+i always love ur poetic entry...pls make a twitter 2 make up dis+

++im currently grooving with:super junior-you're my endless love++

~4th album~

finally...super junior 4th COMEBACK!!

A SM rep told OSEN, “They are working hard in preparing for their comeback. They are working hard to bring a more ‘upgraded’ Super Junior to fans, so we hope that everyone will anticipate for the album.”

jz yesterday after i wake up i see da pic link dat 'whiteuk' put in her twitter

so i click on it n i go.....OMG $%^cb*&hj

seriously dat was damn HOWT...too much on da las pic *squeal

mmm...wondering huh..

its actually a pic dat one their stylist post on his cy

da pic is taken while they doing da make up 4 da mv shooting

my 1st reaction was..err cn he post dat??

i blieve dat it is nt allowed since da official date is nt released yet

n knowing da nature of our boys towards their comeback

they like 2 keep it as surprise as possible 4 us

*recall back da heechul rant bout their leaked pic during dont don era*

so later as i thought both the stylist delete their cy the end of nite..

pity them...i cn imagine da scold dey get from SM

*SCARY!!*

so 2 respect uri oppadeul wish i wont post dat pic until everything is public..

sorry its jz 4 my eyes only~

++ 2gether wif da pic actually da stylist did write something...

how 11 members show up 4 da shooting~~

11 members...speculation its between kangin or kibum??

hankyung..im afraid 2 blieve dat he sure nt showing up...

he's too bz in china n LA bydaway~

my mind r saying dat kangin will b da only one comeback

even my heart refuse dat..who knows wat will happen~mayb miracle could happen

ALL 13 AGAIN++

++im currently grooving with:4men-first kiss++

~lettING go~

letting go.......

i hate 2 answer question dat i cnt answer

i hate 2 answer question dat breaking heart

i hate 2 answer question dat make others asking me again

i hate 2 answer question dat i know da answer~~

TT~~TT

i knew it da day i chose dis road

when da time 2 reveal is coming

i'll b da hardest road dat i hve 2 cross

still i hve 2 cross it 2 get over

___________________________________

~im sorry my friends~

i choose dis road too

++im currently grooving with:secret-friends++

~carDigaN~

finally after waiting n begging 4 so many times

yes...i have long cardigan now

officially my obsession rite now...

hehe...i told u mama

long cardigan is pretty 2 style~~

hehe...thanks 4 agreeing...

my first time buying things expensively(my own money..T_T)

two times in a week

ur daughter turns freak rite now...

mama should tight some screw inside my head~~

++presenting 2 u my topshop cardigan(left) n my seed cardigan(right)++

kyaah...i love love love it sooo much

i wanna wear it 2 sleep

bt no no...dats a crime in fashion!!!

++period++

im doing pretty crazy things 2day...4 most im tweeting donghae!!!

++im currently grooving with:yesung-it has to be you++

~twiTTer~

people all over da world r crazy wif dis...

well, all celebrities love it..^^

so...i hve my twitter accnt 4 i dunno when...-__??

actually im nt really liking tweeting

even fb im rarely updating...~~

guess im only love blogging since i love 2 write many things...

bt well ppl said...make it i believe

'addiction is contagious'

thanx 2 shindong n donghae oppa

im tweeting back....yay.^~~^

++so everyone do follow me kay++

http://twitter.com/BluElollip0p

++im currently grooving with:super junior T-rokkugo++

~am i??~

going through all my documents 4 dis...

^^...say dat im crazy cz i am CRAZY!!!

hahaha...

.............................dis is wat im going through

actually someone ask me on fb about dis...so i jz recalled it here!!

++cheonsa ideal girl++

What I wrote 3 years ago about my ideal type…There are not many changes..

I’m looking for a virtuous girl..!!!

1.Age difference─▷ FEEL..It’s okay..

2.Height ─▷ As long as she’s not taller than me..

3.Hairstyle ─▷Long straight hair or hair which is tied up, as long as it suits (her) and waves at the hair ends..

4.Eyes ─▷ Obedient-looking eyes..Kind eyes..Alert-looking eyes…^^

5.Nose ─▷ As long as it looks pretty…

6.Mouth ─▷ Looking like a peach..ㅋㅋA small mouth would be nice..^^;;;;;

7.Skin tone─▷ Fair skin..^^;

8.Face ─▷ Egg-shaped..?ㅋㅋ

9.Neck ─▷ Long neck…

10.Stature ─▷ As long as (she has a) long neck and long legs ..And it doesn’t look fierce..

11.Dress sense ─▷ As long as it looks refined..

12.Hands ─▷Long tender hands

13.Feet ─▷ Only the feet…Only ..Ah this is difficult..Almost like the hands..

14.Religion ─▷No preference..

15.Accessories ─▷ Nice-looking ones..

16.Family relationship ─▷ Never thought of that..

17.What would you do when you see your ideal type
─▷ Laugh…^^; Almost like wanting to see through her…

18.What if your ideal type professes to you? ─▷ I’d be very happy..

19.What if your ideal type shows her love to you often? ─▷Many times~ㅋBut not to others

20.How many times will you say “I love you” in a day? ─▷ This should be kept in the heart..
Only when I can’t resist saying it…

21.What about pecks? ─▷ Many times…ㅋ

22.What about kisses? ─▷ It’s disgusting when you do it with a dry mouth..ㅋㅋㅋ

23.What kind of pose should your ideal type have when kissing? ─▷ Why is there even this..Ah ha..ㅡㅡㅋ

24.Do you like to sneak kisses?─▷ Will try to sneak kisses..ㅋㅋ

25.Do you hope she acts coquettishly? ─▷ When it’s proper..^^

26.Your ideal type’s talent ─▷ If she likes music..

27.Her interest? ─▷ Sports..Or music..

28.The place you’d like to go with your ideal type─▷ All~~

29.Things you’d like to do with your ideal type ─▷ (Get) Married

30.Smokes? ─▷ A girl who smokes isn’t good..Quit it..Not because I hate it..
But it’s for the person’s health…

31.Drinks? ─▷ As long as it suits the circumstance..

32.What your ideal type likes? ─▷Me

33.What your ideal type hates? ─▷ I don’t know what my ideal type hates..

34.What you want her to do everyday? ─▷ Call (me)..

35.Which celebrity you like your ideal type to look like? ─▷ Olivia Hussey..Han Ga In..Jeon Ji Hyun..Kim Tae Hee

36.Which celebrity do you wish your ideal type to like? ─▷Me..

37.What should your ideal type do when you cry because you’re too tired and you need to rely on her?
─▷Nothing should be said..I’d be grateful as long as she sits beside me and listens to what I said..

38.What if you had a fight with your ideal type..How would you wish to settle it? ─▷ Stop fightingㅡㅡ;

39.How should she pacify you when you’re angry? ─▷I’d initiate..
Or let me by myself..But is she still says those ridiculous things..I wouldn’t be able to control my temper..

40.Besides you, how many people do you wish the girl has a relationship with? ─▷Do girls date too??

41.How do you wish you’d meet your ideal type? ─▷ Meet each other suddenly~~ㅋ

42.How will you propose? ─▷ As long as she’s moved..

43.What standard must she have in her studies? ─▷ Girls who are like flower vases..I don’t like them..I like girls who are virtuous..

44.What present do you wish to get from her? ─▷ Anything…

45.Is it good for your ideal type to be popular? ─▷As long as it’s of a standard..

46.How do you wish your ideal type would call you? ─▷ Darling or Hubby

47.How would you call your ideal type? ─▷ My baby..ㅋㅋAck..ㅡㅡ;

48.Do you wish for your ideal type to share all her secrets with you?
─▷ Things that she doesn’t wish to say, it’s okay..
As long as she’s frank with me..

49.Whatever that’s not written above you can write here!!
─▷ What do I have to say..I don’t know..I don’t have anything else..

50.Some words to say to your ideal type─▷Why did you appear only now..I miss you..

credit onlySJ13 4 translation....

am i fulfilling those???

++im currently grooving with:son dambi-crazy++

~SoRry~

friends,I learnt many things from them~they gave me tricks 4 stupid activity,gave me money when my pocket is empty in college/fac canteen,they raise their hands towards me to say good bye when i'm leaving them,they love me,they care about me n i love them too but u know wat?? they never teach me....how to live without them! ;p

(quote from shahirah shaik fb)

to shahirah,ayuni,aishah,farah,masha,dee n tikah

IM REALLY SORRY..

cz i'll teach u how to live without me

especially to shirah...

im afraid i cn keep our promise

2 keep staying still

this is nt an end bt an and!!!

++im currently grooving with:mc mong ft ivy-i am...++

~................~

its nt an END bt an AND....

(quote from angel teuk)

its already time...

another one more week

hope all of this will become an AND to me

wish 4 things 2 b like wat i wish it'

these past 2 years enduring

really makes me know myself more

is it???

mayb.....

its hard...not ever been easy~~

im thankful that im still strong

under ALLAH guidance

im still dream big n never give up

im happy for now

dat i never put myself on dead end

.................................

these past 2 years

blaming myself n hating others...

keep hunting me...

hate when thinking bout my fate

why im nt b like wat my other frens b

its nt dat im da best

bt we'r da same

guess...ALLAH jz wanna test me

how long cn i take dis

after all

dis is all thank to MAMA

BIG THANKS!!!

really dis past years too many times

im down

nt being myself is my biggest sin

to everyone...

mama keep pushing...no worries

my time will come to

sooner nor later

keep up wif it

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tears...mmm

dunno how many times its flow

heart hurt, mind hurt, body hurt

too much...bt im keep holding it

im nt an expressive

so i dunno how 2 make others understand me

even MAMA get a hard times 4 it

n im still believe dat MAMA still dun get it

she jz wanna make me happy

^___^...even dat

im happy bcoz MAMA still b beside me

THANK U MAMA...

mom's always da best

my family who keep myself happy

even da hurt

never ever argue or get mad

at my tears or my laugh

thinking of dis really

make me teary...

better stop!!!

.................................

to all my frens

bet later dis will give u big shock

im really sorry

i cant really speak

im afraid n nt cnfident

what if...

things still nt like wat i want

what if...

im still dreaming

dunno whether u aware or nt

im easily giving up now

i hate when im being STUPID!!!

its really HURT

2 even think about it..moreover to b...

i believe soon it will stop

n by dat time

im really SORRY

guess some of da things n dreams we make together

im afraid im nt b able

2 walk together with u!!!

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++till dis time i still want 2 believe++

++im currently grooving with:evan ft sol flower-its okay to cry++

~MyeoLChI~

생일 hyuk jae!!

saenggilchuka hamnida

saenggilchuka hamnida

saranghaneun lee hyukjae-shi

saenggilchuka hamnida!!!

hehe...our myeolchi turn 24 dis year...

b4 i made dis post

im wondering

whether it should b myeolchi or monkey

bt then i guess

2009/2010 is mostly as myeolchi

so...oppa chuahaejyo...

++my wish 4 u++

...our crybaby hope as u get older u b more tough...

...always stand by ur hyung...

...dun ignore 'eunhae' cz we really love u guys...

...do take care of teuki hyung...

...give much love 2 heechul as much as u give 2 hae...

...keep dancing cz u look da best when dancing...

...b cnfident wif ur singing cz i love ur voice...

(i hear it live...n i want more!!)

...dun b stingy 2 ur member...

...go eat more golgi...

...yongwonhan saranghae...

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~bonus 4 me~

-------------loading.....

omo...i cant wait anymore!!!

stop teasing us n give da damn date!!!

0...O!

++im currently grooving with:eunhyuk-leeteuk birthday song(he wrote dis)++

~FareWell~

to our beloved mother, sister and grandmother

chik binti mohammed

(01/10/1935-02/04/2006)

2010...dis is da 4th year of ur farewell

still we longing u

ur tenderness, kindness, gentleness

ur warm touch

ur bright smile

ur sweet voice

ur yummy cooking

it remains forever....

~our moment that we had

together will never die

in our heart...although

we live like nothing happen

deep inside in our heart

there's ur face glitter it wif some love splashing

rest in peace~

+da memory still remain vivid in my mind...

how i feel so heavy 2 join da gerkorama

how i cried a lot bcoz i dun wanna go

da last time we meet is a week b4 ur farewell

u fed me wif ur own 'bubur jagung'...

u had ur pamelo as ur dream

neway still happy

bcoz i know allah loves u more than us+

++im currently grooving with:lee seung gi-farewell++

~WAT 0.0!!~

++super junior...who??

huh...i hate them!!!++

0__0

(quote from kibum-full house)

its time for SOSHI world~

hahahaha......APRIL FOOL!!!

i'll never hate them...rite kibum..

we jz play wif some word...mian soshi (sj-world make me)...

im sujufied nt soshified...

bt still super generation is okay!!!

i'll be as loyal as possible

once an E.L.F forever an E.L.F

coz i've promise 2 always b by ur side

n i am your wing...jungsoo

++im currently grooving with:super junior-sapphire blue++