~alright...~

last 2 weeks was very bad to me.
so many things happen.
can even swallow it properly even today.
anyhow,i able to grasp it bit by bit now....Alhamdulillah.
i guess im alright now!
for those concerning,i can never pay your gratitude
may ALLAH bless you

++im currently grooving with:beast(yoseob and junhyung)-thanks to++

~afraid?takut?~

i just dont know what im thinking off right now
either think or feel
everything is indifferent!
one thing obvious....
afraid...i am so afraid!
everything happen so fast
in the blink of an eyes
yet cause so much suffering...
just then time feels so slow
how i wish that time chasing me not me
i just want that for now~

i thought she is strong,no she is not
i thought she is well,no she is not
i thought she is happy,no she is not
i thought she is in joy,no she's suffering
i thought she dont mind,no she do mind

i thought im weak,no im strong because of her
i thought im not well,no im well enough because of her
i thought im not happy,no im happy because of her
i thought im suffering,no im in joy because of her
i thought im nobody,im a person because of her
i thought i've done everything.....never!

i just can hold anymore
i am so afraid
.......................

mama,please dont do this to me!

++im currently grooving with:dalmatian-officially missing you remix++

~maal hijrah~

salam,

'alhamdulillah,syukur ke hadrat ilahi kerana masih membenarkan aku mengambil nafas milik-NYA dan hidup di atas hak-NYA!'

lepas maghrib tadi,alhamdulillah tahun hijrah baru telah bermula so saye kt sini nak mengucapkan selamat maal hijrah kepada semua umat muslim di seluruh dnia khususnya kepada family saye yg jauh d mata dkat d hati, kawan-kawan saye dan juga y terlintas membaca ucapan saye ne. insyallah moga-moga tahun baru ini memberi peluang kepada kite untuk menambahkan lagi pengabdian kite kepada ALLAH. penuhilah hari ini dengan zikrullah dan selawat ke atas junjungan mulia nabi Muhammad s.a.w.

Dengan menyebut nama Allah Yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Penyayang.

Semoga Allah senantiasa melimpahkan rahmat dan keselamatan kepada junjungan kami Nabi Muhammad SAW, beserta keluarga dan sahabatnya.

Ya Allah Engkaulah Yang Abadi, Dahulu, lagi Awal. Dan hanya kepada anugerah-Mu yang Agung dan Kedermawanan-Mu tempat bergantung.

Dan ini tahun baru benar-benar telah datang. Kami memohon kepada-Mu perlindungan dalam tahun ini dari (godaan) setan, kekasih-kekasihnya dan bala tentaranya. Dan kami memohon pertolongan untuk mengalahkan hawa nafsu amarah yang mengajak pada kejahatan,agar kami sibuk melakukan amal yang dapat mendekatkan diri kami kepada-Mu wahai Dzat yang memiliki Keagungan dan Kemuliaan. Semoga Allah senantiasa melimpahkan rahmat dan keselamatan kepada junjungan kami Nabi Muhammad SAW, Nabi yang ummi dan ke atas para keluarga dan sahabatnya.

++im currently grooving with:al-ajiba-maal hijrah++

~cik masha tangkap sye~

salam,

aigoo,igtkn terlepas rupenye x jugak.
tadi ngah blogwalking kt sume blog yg sye ikot termasuk la cik masha ne.
bajet cam syok giler bace info sal sume kucing-kucing comel itu sampai la ke satu post sal '25 facts bout masha you should know'(tittle da dimodified oleh sye utk kesenangan memahami)
bace punye bace...alamak cik masha ne tag kite pulak!!
so to make it short...

"once you've been tagged you're supposed to write a note with 25 random things, fact or goal about you. at the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. you have to tag the person who tagged you. If i tagged you, its because I want to know about you."(copy paste dari blog masha)

1. im a girl born in 1990 as a muslim.
2. currently still studying medic at moscow,russia.
3. people around me call me qiela but my family call me angah or miera.
4. sangat2 suke dengan bende-bende yg sedap dan comel macam kek,coklat,gule-gule dan adik-beradiknye.
5. walaupun sekarang ne winter, saye x kesah telan ais krim walaupun gigi dan mulut saye kebas.
6. saye ne x pernah ade boyfriend dan x pernah jatuh cinta, crush banyak giler.
7. peminat setia SUPER JUNIOR terutamanye leader die LEETEUK.
8. nak sangat boyfriend macam cn blue jonghyun n laki macam leeteuk.
9. dalam mp3 saye penuh ngan lagu korea j.
10. saye x suke tengok movie kt wayang,mkn popcorn wayang saye suke giler!
11. kawan baik dalam hidup saye kakak saye ngan adik saye,the best.
12. skunk-eternity,full with bundles of joys and fun!
13. sekarang ne tgh crush ngan mamat hot dalam metro jmpe minggu lepas,hehe agak2 boleh jmpe blik x?
14. kalau boleh waktu harijadi saye, saye nak hadiah baju ngan kasut banyak2. takde kek pown x pe!
15. suke giler pakai high heels, lg rse nk trjatuh kalu pakai flat.
16.cermin adalah benda vital dalam hidup sye.
17. ske giler pakai cantik2.kalau boleh buang sampah dpn rumah pun kene lawa.
18. suke memenuhi almari baju walaupun pintu die da x ley tutup rapat.
19. kalau boleh setiap hari nak g shopping.
20. giler diet, kalu org kte sye gemok mlm 2 jugak sye sit up giler2
21. suke mkn sayur x suke sgt mkn nasi.
22. suke study last minute sbb drama korea punye pasal.
23. sangat suke puji diri sendiri COMEL ^^
24. sangat x pernah merendahkan diri sendiri.
25. ...................................byk lg nk cter bkn 25 facts j tp secrets makes a woman woman. so x ley r gtaw byk2!!


i hope cik masha and sume yg bace puas hati ngan facts ne, thank you so much for having your time wasted to know me better. insyallah, may ALLAH bless you!

hmm, my turn to catch people. im gonna tag blogger which i follow coz i really wish to know you better.xoxo love you ^^v

+cik fatin liyana+
+cik hur+
+cik shea+
+cik yanny+
+cik jesmine+
+cik norfy+
+cik kuzhaimah+
+cik anah+

++im currently grooving with:sistar-over++

~food ver.6~

salam,

since its been a while
so i'll be posting more than one food i made
so its a pleasure to your eyes.
have fun!!

++pasta carbonara(own recipe)++

++modified instant mihun tomyam++

++puding roti++

++fried cabbage with tauhu++

++vegetable beef soup++

all this are made on different days.
so dont assume i chunk all of it on one day.
i still love my slim belly so i wont be a monster.
and please dont wish to be one!!


++im currently grooving with:t-ara-why are you being like this++

~winter~

salam,

haha.
its december now and its already WINTER.
its really freezing cold.
i will never wish to experience this if i ever had a chance to go back in time.
tsk,tsk...too bad of me to regret over things that i 'kneeing' wish.
^.^ anyway im still grateful that im able to go through this with the courages and braves!
kekeke...do i sounds so pitiful?
well,for me this wonter is really cruel.
i just thought that dying because of cold is possible for me.
anyhow ALLAH wont make this season happen if human cant endure it.
its just the first time for me,i know!

i still remember the first of winter,1/12/2010
the temperature was -25 and its windchill is -36
to be able to go through the day for class
is such an astonishing success to me.
alhamdulillah.
i hope my first time winter experience is not too cruel for me.
ALLAH,please have mercy to this pitiful slaves!

ps:its shivering inside the room,yay finally i can use my comforer!

++im currently grooving with:sm the ballad-hot time++

~2nd chance?~

salam,

its been quite a while im not blogging TT
its too bad,nowadays i keep chasing my time rather than to walk together.
life been quite hectic with all the studies and colloq.
anyhow im still enjoying the breath im taken!
alhamdulillah,thank you ALLAH.
i wanna be good somehow these days and i forbid myself on that.
insyallah.

2nd chance??

how should i put this?
there's alot of second chance i wish.
its either i concious or not i have it.
first i wish to have a second chance with him...maybe not once
a chance to know the true him,REALITY!
its a crush,i know
but somehow i wanna it to be reality.
if its not meant to be happen
i'll know that's not what fated to me.
hopefully ALLAH will reveal everything sooner.
insyaallah!

secondly i wanna a chance to be a better person.
recently i keep having a dream thet i cant intepret.
maybe its not meant to be that way,
but still it makes me ponder
why i've been dreaming that kind of situation.
certain of it makes me upset,confuse and disgrace of myself.
death,suffering,regretness....
am i not good enough.
to be honest i did do some research the meaning behind the dream.
alhamdulillah
nothing so creepy come out
its all give positive response.
however its still doesnt calm my heart.
somehow i think that's how ALLAH try to warn me.
that maybe im getting too far fro the path
and HE wants me to ponder the right way so that i can reach safely to the truth,HIM!
insyallah,hopes that's what its all about!

thirdly and maybe the last.
..............................................................................
people live with desire,i dont think i have last
we always greed for more when we got what we want
so i wont say something uncertain
i dont if know myself better
will i be satisfied if everything,all he chance i want
i have it.
im afraid that what'll happen after that will be different.
that's im certain coz the desire to have more is always there.
that's what human is...anyway i hope that if i have the greed
i wont get away from the right path im taken!
insyallah.

"ya ALLAH,aku mohon lindungilah hati ini dari menyekutukan-MU.sesungguhnya hanya-MU tuhanku yang satu,amin"

++im currently grooving with:raihan-syukur++