~afraid?takut?~

i just dont know what im thinking off right now
either think or feel
everything is indifferent!
one thing obvious....
afraid...i am so afraid!
everything happen so fast
in the blink of an eyes
yet cause so much suffering...
just then time feels so slow
how i wish that time chasing me not me
i just want that for now~

i thought she is strong,no she is not
i thought she is well,no she is not
i thought she is happy,no she is not
i thought she is in joy,no she's suffering
i thought she dont mind,no she do mind

i thought im weak,no im strong because of her
i thought im not well,no im well enough because of her
i thought im not happy,no im happy because of her
i thought im suffering,no im in joy because of her
i thought im nobody,im a person because of her
i thought i've done everything.....never!

i just can hold anymore
i am so afraid
.......................

mama,please dont do this to me!

++im currently grooving with:dalmatian-officially missing you remix++