~aGItaTEd~

i,ve been dreaming in my sleep

n im nt happy with it

why everythings in my dream

against me???

(its my dream so its suppose 2 b happy 4 me)

i dunno

but it really hurt my heart

as i wake up

tears wants 2 go down

but i hold it

i question myself

should i cry like wat i did in da dream??

bawling like crazy

try 2 make ppl understand...

or should i jz stop??

all of dis things makes everything hard

all of da ppl i love

crying fighting yelling

its full of sorrow n hatred!!

i wish its stop

bt i wish 2 continue too

i dun wanna b selfish

yet i have to

dis make me hurt myself more

deeper..deeper..deeper

do things will change if i stop??

do things will change if i continue??

cn i jz stand there

doing nothing

time stop!!

i keep losing myself

i want 2 b like before

positive optimistic confidence

~its jz dat everythings dat happen kill me slowly~

T___T

n im still crying......

(can i jz sleep n not waking up??)

++im currently grooving with:ernest-because im weary++