~home sweet home~

salam,

HOME SWEET HOME BABY!!!!

another 20+ hours to go
cant wait to leave this cold city
and welcoming the warm breeze on my face
kyaaah....i cant wait!
it might be quiet hard this holidays
but anyway its my enjoyment
there's a lot of things i wanna do
especially EATING and SHOPPING
have fun with my family
oh my,grin still attach on my face since then
thank to ALLAH today's exam was quite smooth
i can answer although not all correct
since im not atking it with honesty
im satisfied enough~
hopefully tomorrow's(its today ady) journey is smooth
and got no problem
may ALLAH protect me and my friends throughout
AMIN.

ps:should i bring along my dearest lappie or not,hmm?
pss:i dont like red so much but seems like later im challenging a bull =_=!
psss:i cant sleeeeeeep!!!

++im currently grooving with:infinite-before the dawn++

~music,guy...~

salam,

its been a while not clinging here
not because there's nothing to say,there's a lot i want to say
word by word with sincerity
but nah desire only wont bring anywhere
im contemplating actually
whether i should or not writing about this thing~
quite not myself to admit sheepishly
but i guess there's a time when you willingly give up your pride to your own
just to satisfied your ownself too
I AM LONELY....

music??guy??

this few days i really chillax-ing
going all over with one k-drama after one
its feels so indifferent
rage when its suppose to,
cry when its suppose to,
laugh when its suppose to
blank when its suppose to....
according to drama!
no direction just go with the flow
and its really enticing me coz i dont have to involve anything
just go through with it...
but then the aftermath of its
makes my sleep not really peaceful
i tend to relate thing that have absolutely nothing to do with me
till my brain enrage with so many though
that i cant really comprehend what's actually that i want from that
grrr,totally what im feeling right now
and that's actually the point of writing today
music and guy
sharp feature add a bonus

music
its something that i really enjoy
and sometime i take it as a passion or maybe a hidden desire
truthfully i know nothing
dont know how to play anything
what is this,what is that
but i believe that i can comprehend with it well
its like a cream on cake
it complete the feeling like that
its my hidden wish that i know everything about music
everything from inside out like i clinging onto art
it touch the softest spot in my heart
it tingles me,makes me giggles and awed!

guy
this is totally not my thing
something that i wish i know but lost in understand it
a wish and desire most girls posses
love,crush and hatred
i am too complicated with my feelings and desire
that's a complex for me
i want him to be perfect to others but not to me
and i also want him to be perfect to me but not to others
my principles in love
let love find you
so that in the end it wont hurt so badly-you wanna die
or it wont be so happy-im in heaven forever
imperfect like that
so that i can nurture it and tend it accordingly
im a dictator to my feelings
its all start with what i feel and think
im not vulnerable
sometime thats prevent me from any love
and yes till now im still dont know the true meaning of love
pathetic...i know.

music+guy
this is actually the syndrome of watching to many dramas
i figure out that guy with hidden passion
tingles my stone cold heart
especially with music in between
sharp feature add a bonus!!!
a guy that become truly himself when behind the instrument
its like a shout
im the best+coolest in the world right now
but in reality im just a normal guy
that may or may not excite girls.
guy with passion and not blatantly used it to show off
totally swoon me
the charisma it oozed shivers me
makes my day and night confused
and change my view on my choice again
anyway in the end
the best man win
good man with good women and bad guy with bad women
thats the nature principle!

ps: bad guy with musical talent TOTALLY swoon me,truthfully wish to have one!
pss: this post is dedicated to lee jonghyun,kim jae wook and no min woo!

++im currently grooving with:ernest-my precious(mary stayed out all night OST)++

~new year,change?~

HAPPY NEW YEAR

its 2011 already,
time flies so fast....
there's a lot of things that has happen throughout 2010
from ukm to tati college and finally here in moscow.
the journey to get to the final stop is soo bitter
tears can even fall~
hahaha
2010 is the my years of cry
can 2011 be my years of joy??
I DOUBT......

this year will be lot of differences
im in moscow,struggling to be a doctor.
will be rarely home...that's for sure!
one thing that hurt the most....
MAMA
we wont have the same her
she'll face a lot of trouble this year
within herself and her surrounding
and i cant even be with her
staying beside her to give support and comfort
i dont even like this new year!

just one thing i wish
to be more stronger than ever
for mama and for everyone
............................................................................................

++im currently grooving with:maher zain-open my eyes++